Awakening
By Eden Gloria
The details of my past, who I was and how I became, although more clear to me and better understood now, are of less importance because I have accepted responsibility for my own being.
The short version is that my childhood was growing up in the 50's and 60's, some of it classical with adventures and misadventures anyone could have experienced. Some of that experience was unique to me. Then, coming of age in the 70's, becoming a man, which would have been difficult enough only to be further confounded by the struggle to become a gay man. "Becoming" continued in fits and starts through the 80's. I was still asking many questions and searching wildly everywhere for reason finding little understanding, very little peace, and almost no happiness. Real progress came when I stopped looking outside myself and went within. There was the buried treasure, the hidden meaning, the elusive answers to all my questions. I found the essence of myself--MY SPIRIT. With It, nothing else mattered. Everything else was malleable, changeable. It allowed me to accept myself for all I had been, who I am, and it opened me up to who I will yet become. Boy, man, gay man, spiritual man, accepting the essence of all the energy available to me; masculine, feminine, and the undefinable.
Like the petals of the Lotus, blooming, and radiating life, the fertile body, mind, and spirit are born, reborn, and renewing itself again and again, season after season, in perpetual rejuvenation. This is who I am now. I am everything and growing.